Anxious feeling of soon to come accomplishment
So I have been in my role as a data analyst/architect for nearly 11 months now. In my year in the role, my workload has varied and the type of work has varied as well. Several of my projects were put on hold, cancelled, delayed, or ended up needing much less work from me than expected. However, today’s is a different story.
Today is the day for a project whose deployment is mandated by a compliance deadline and barely squeezed in. All components of the push go through me — all stored procedures, permissions, and function changes. No code changes, all sql side changes. It may sound simple but due to many environment issues, varying object ownership, permissions, and integration complexities, there has been many complications during test. (Consultant level employee would agree with me regarding the mess) One of the many symptoms of things that could go wrong is the simple inability for a user to even log in — big problem!
So right now everything is locked and loaded to go tonight. As for me, I have that feeling I haven’t had in some time…that nervous, anxious feeling — almost adrenaline-like. For me this comes from the idea of my failure. Although I think I don’t like this feeling, I finally have something in my job that has made me feel some purpose!
So ideally as of around 9:30pm tonight, I’ll be sipping some beverages, alcoholic in nature probably, in relief that I didn’t screw up. After, I can look forward to my upcoming weekend travels to the unexplored great city of Grand Rapids, Michigan for a NIN concert.
Thanks for reading. I am over-reacting big time!
